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Name: Tienn
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: San Jose
Birthday: 1/15/1988
Gender: Female
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| Why is it that I, someone ridiculously illogical and irrational, taking a logic course? O_O
So I'm just bored in class right now and I have nothing better to do than check my xanga that hasn't been touched for months. *Shrugs. Who uses xanga anymore anyways?
So it's summer everyone! Let's go crazy and have fun!!!... or not... Not when I'm taking two summer school classes and working two jobs. *Sigh. I'm trying to come home to SJ more often because I only came home twice during the spring semester. xD Coming home this weekend again to hang out with family and friends. <3 I do really love it up in Berkeley though, even with the stress of school and work, the weather is beautiful and the people/surrounding is chill compared to during the school year. =]
Class is out now! Byeeeeeeee Xanga worldddddd! <3
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| So anyone who truly knows me knows that my guilty pleasure is celebrity gossip. I know it's dumb, I know I'm wasting time reading it, but in the end I don't care because it entertains me like no other. I love perezhilton and dlisted. <3 Don't get me wrong I don't waste hours and hours on end reading up on celebrity gossip, but it's something fun to do when you have nothing else to do.
Anyways, on perezhilton, he posted this diary entry of Serena Williams and I just think it's a damn moving entry and every girl (maybe even guy) has probably felt this way before. So thus, the reason for my sudden reappearance on xanga after months of hiatus.
"You just start dating a guy. He likes you, you like him. You guys want to spend every second together. When you are not with him you are talking to him on the phone. You have deep feelings for him. The feelings keep developing. They keep growing. You begin to think this could be it. You begin to think I really think this is it for me….. You love being together. You can't stand being without each other. You start to feel like you have never felt before, and you do things for him you have never done before. He tells you he doesn’t want to be with you and only you. He tells you he adores you. He tells you u guys were meant for each other. You care for him. You are falling for him. You take things slow. You don't want to make any mistakes. You go slower with him than you have ever done before. You don't rush to introduce him to your friends, let alone anyone else. You want it to be right. You are feeling this and you feel this could mean something. He communicates with you. He thanks God you are in his life. You guys have fun together. You laugh together. He talks about being and becoming serious with you. He talks about his desire to love you one day. He talks about he can't imagine not being with you. You think he's falling in love with you. But you can't be 100% sure. You guys have not said that sacred 4 letter word that starts with an "L". But you feel it deep deep in you. Deeper than you have in a long time.
You ask him "are we moving too fast"? He replies "We are just following our hearts." You start to trust him. Something you have not done since your first heart break. How long ago was that? You wonder. Trust is something you vowed you would never do again. But slowly your heart comes out of its steel enclosure. You feel like you can trust him. You feel as if everything you went though was for a reason. And the reason was to meet him. Days turns into weeks. And he tells you about the connection you guys have in each others hearts.
Weeks turns into months and you slowly start to wean the other guys in your life out. And than it happens. No not the "L" word. But what you have been most afraid of. What deep in your heart you have been afraid to confront. What you always suspected would happen one day sooner or later. HE STOPS CALLING. You panic. But you try to stay calm. He did this before when you first started talking, but u tried to forget it. You knew u should have not forgotten. But u tried to ignore it. He disappears for a week with no phone call. No answer to yours no nothing. Finally you hear from him. You want to rage you want to scream you want to cry. But you can't help you heart from feeling a tad bit happy."
"As you begin to ask him what happened he stops you. He says "I need space". You cringe at these words. This is the very reason you begin to think why your heart was in that steel enclosure. The reason you don't put your emotions your feelings, your heart into it. Because one day it always turns in to this day. But you are already too far out you are at the point of no return, you can't come back. You can't believe, although a piece of you does believe it. Space. How many time have you heard this before? Space? Wasn’t you giving him enough? Space. Hummm you laugh because its so ridiculous. You laugh because again u knew this day would come. Why did you not listen to that little voice inside your hear telling you to "watch out". "Be careful". You laugh only because tears won't come.
You know its not you, but u cant help but look at that woman in the mirror. You can't help but pick yourself apart. Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? And again and again you can't come up with the answer. Slowly as you try to focus on other things and think of other people you put you heart back into that steel case.
Tears finally come and they make you feel a little better, but the pain is piercing through your soul. The pain never hurts as bad as the first time. . But all the same you can't help but feel hopeless, foolish. Your great chance to be with your soul mate has again somehow slipped and failed.
But eventually you know you will pick yourself up. Eventually you know you will try again. And eventually you know you will find the keys to you heart, but also in the back of your mind you think…. Will it happen again.""
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| I'm pretty content with life. I miss you kids back home, although I may be too busy to show it. <3 I'm happily living live, trying to do well in school, and trying desperately to maintain a normal social life. (:
Do something good for the world once in a while; it makes you feel good, but doesn't mess with your health. (:
Good Karmaaaa please.
Flubby Chubby Tubbbby Hubbby... weeeeeee! (:
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| Although I really miss Berkeley, the city, the atmosphere, the friends, and all the fun times, I love being at home and summer has been real good to me. (: I've been hanging out with my love ones practically everyday and working two jobs so I can be ballar ballar. :P
Last night we went to a drive in movie and sat on top of BJ's watching Ratatouille cuddled under blankets (Until it got too cold of course). It was cute and I wannna do it again! =) I'm always shopping with Kat or Thu or VSL girls. I'm gunna be broke. -_____-;;
Work has been fun, but tiring. My kids are all weirdos, but then they make the job worth all the bitchwork. :x American Eagle is tiring since I'm always closing so I'm there til really late. :[
Posh Spice is Hot. (:
I hope I can get into Psych 2. :x
That's all for now, not like anyone really reads this anyways! =]
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| Meet-cute: Scenario in which two individuals are brought together in some unlikely, zany, destined-to-fall-in-love- and-be-together-forever sort of way (the more unusual, the better).
I really need to stop watching sappy chick-flicks. So I'm jobless, broke, and usually bored at home. Call me out!
Berkeley is great, anyone coming to Berkeley in the coming fall... Good job and make the most out of your first year of college! =]
I will do better in school, be a better person, and be happier. =]
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